Aftermath

 I went to Kutztown University on Saturday with my aunt instead of my mother’s boyfriend. Yay! 

It was horrible, it’s literally empty, has nothing to do, smells like cows, and it feels like everything there is run down. I don’t think I really want to spend the next four years of my life living like that.

On better news I got my financial aid thing from Moore and it cut like half the cost of going there! I’m not sure if my dad is home today but hopefully he is and will listen to my wishes. He usually doesn’t bc he’s a man so I hope he takes pity on me for being his kid.

I’m in math class now and typing on my phone to try and get all my thoughts out so I can read. We never do math in class and I only do it if we have to turn it in. 

I hope this’ll help I would like to finish my lesbian vampire story (Carmilla)

Is it a Road Trip if its an Hour Long Drive?

 To continue yesterday's story, I am doing my bestest right now to fill out scholarships and similar things. In art class, I'm gonna bring it up, and hopefully nobody talks over me, and get some answers on what they think I should do. 

Last night, in the conversation with my mother about where to go, she offered a 1-hour road trip to see what it's like at both schools. Then, in the conversation about how Moore is too expensive, I did what I normally do and acted like it didn't bother me. I think I said "I don't care" like 10 times in that one convo.

bc I said I didn't care, I am now committed to a trip only to kutztown uni with her mother fucking boyfriend. Quite literally MOTHER FUCKING btw.

It'll be nice to see it since I have to go there most likely, I just dont want to go with her boyfriend and I really want to go to Moore.

Might be Crashing Out Actually

 i just realised that i can say whatever the fuck i want bc nobody reads blogs anymore

and i dont have to worry about grammer or repitition of events bc i fuck myself over in the same ways every fucking day!

So after submitting a portfolio to the school that ive openly wanted to go to since we were barely thinking about it junior year, I WAS ACCEPTED!!!!! YIPPEEEEE!!!

it moore college of art and design, its a private school, and womens only, and prestigous or some shit. Obviously, ITS TOO EXPENSIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!! HUZZAH!!!!!!!!!!!!

my other option is kutztown university, which im fine with. i finished my moore application so many months late i thought i would never get in, my hopes were at zero until i got accepted. Then it was, which school do i go to and blah blah blah. i ask my mom for help and tell her its expensive and why, then she crushes my hopes and dreams into a flat disc like a hydraulic press.

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College Screw Ups

I really wanted to go to Moore College of Art and Design, but I totally fucked myself over. Obviously, because it's an art school, you need to submit a portfolio with the application and they specifically wanted two "observational pieces" which i do not do. I procrastinated on those two little drawings so much that i only just finished my application by turning in my portfolio after i did the first parts in November. I took so long to submit it they gave me a fee waiver for it and sent me multiple emails.

Here's a bad pic of one! I cropped the image i used for my portfolio so it only showed the finished parts.

Anyway, finally submitted it on Saturday! Decision deadlines are due on May 1st! Maybe ill get accepted by then, probably won't but its nice to have hopes.¯\_(ツ)_/¯

And i havent done a single scholarship oppurtunity

What Do I Do?

 I actually was just looking in the apps section on the google homepage and wanted to know what this was and now im here. I don't really have any ways to spread this around and i dont think people even read blogs anymore (only the cool ones). I thought i would just do a blog thats kinda like a diary but also like texting a friend updates on weird shit that happens. Whenever something happens i wonder if im overeacting or being an asshole. Maybe this is just gonna be like the am i the asshole reddit post for all of the dumb shit i do. If anyone finds this youre one in a billion bc my art isnt good enough to get followers on social media.  ( ദ്ദി ˙ᗜ˙ )

real actual image of me--->